I dug deep this month and stepped out of my comfort zone. I found out that the surgery my horse needed was going to be this month and not next, as I had “planned”. I immediately felt rushed, I did not even have the money together for her surgery yet. I am a planner and making an appointment for surgery before I was prepared is not something, I was comfortable with. The fact that this is my precious horse and Equine Gestalt Coaching partner Remy gave me the courage I needed. I went into action and put my favorite Little Red VW Beetle up for sale and started a GoFundMe. Asking for help in this way is so hard for me. I move through the world as if I have everything under control and do not need anything, when in fact I do want and need some help. It has felt like a sign of weakness to show this type of vulnerability.
I felt like a pioneer in the Wilderness. This was uncharted territory. I would start a GoFundMe or contribute for someone else in a heartbeat, so why not for myself, and Remy?
I received a flood of donations and communication immediately after I posted, and I felt heard. It quite frankly moved me to tears and proved to my inner critic that I was supported by my tribe. It was a lesson in finding the confidence to put my needs out in the world, without judging the outcome before it had a chance to unfold.
What can you do today that is outside of your comfort zone? Let your sassy self out to play? Ask for help? Be brave with your heart!
“Whenever you feel uncomfortable, instead of retreating back into your old comfort zone, pat yourself on the back and say, “I must be growing,” and continue moving forward.”